larus' expression falls slightly, setting his phone aside so that neal's view of him is currently that of the ceiling as he changes the position he's sitting in. when he picks up again, he almost looks thoughtful. like he's considering something he wants to say but probably never will. ]
I thought my agreement was enough. [ yes, he really does think that. ] I haven't left this city in years, and I still don't know if it's a good idea. But I want to. I want to try these things with you.
[ he wants to feel normal. not that he voices it, but he hopes neal understands. larus is anything but, and it's already dangerous enough that he's spending so much time with him. taking that outside of where they are? it's insane. neal has to know that; given what he's said, he clearly doesn't. ]
It's still asking a lot of me though. Being this consumed by you is very much the opposite of what I should be doing. [ and yet... here they are. ]
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larus' expression falls slightly, setting his phone aside so that neal's view of him is currently that of the ceiling as he changes the position he's sitting in. when he picks up again, he almost looks thoughtful. like he's considering something he wants to say but probably never will. ]
I thought my agreement was enough. [ yes, he really does think that. ] I haven't left this city in years, and I still don't know if it's a good idea. But I want to. I want to try these things with you.
[ he wants to feel normal. not that he voices it, but he hopes neal understands. larus is anything but, and it's already dangerous enough that he's spending so much time with him. taking that outside of where they are? it's insane. neal has to know that; given what he's said, he clearly doesn't. ]
It's still asking a lot of me though. Being this consumed by you is very much the opposite of what I should be doing. [ and yet... here they are. ]